My name is Eden, and I'm in my third year of Filmmaking at Manchester School of Art at MMU. The past three years, I have been deciding where exactly in Filmmaking I'd like to reside - and I've realised my heart falls into Documentary. Being an Editor, I can't help but love the idea that you can never quite know what to expect when you're handed a documentary to edit. It could be something you expected, or it could've taken such an interesting turn you could never have predicted - no two documentaries are the same, in my opinion. This is why I've decided that for my final project, I would like to make my own documentary.
"LAMENTATION" is a documentary, soon to be in production. The aim of the abstract documentary is to shed light on the illness. You may well know somebody who is suffering from Depersonalisation Disorder - in fact, you may suffer from it. Chances are you've never heard of it, which is why this documentary will soon exist; to educate those who are not aware of the illness - and also for those who do suffer, to let them know that their thoughts and sufferings do not go unnoticed.
I personally suffer from Depersonalisation Disorder, and so I will be drawing from personal experiences. I will feel this is a successful documentary if it could educate even one person. In my experiences, most family members understandably had not heard of this illness - and why would they? It's not a word often heard, even in the world of mental health. In fact, in my past, professionals have been fairly unfamiliar with DPD, and this just goes to show how much more important discussion is. The more we discuss through art forms and conversation, the sooner we can end the stigma that mental illnesses aren't 'real', that they are a 'trend'.
"Living through a screen, through a television, through a sea of water and rough tides. Music, dialogue, all going to deaf ears. Depersonalisation is still an unknown, invisible illness.
Imagine waking up, and feeling like you're still asleep. Like you're walking down the busiest high street, but all you can focus on is the fuzziness clouding your brain and vision. Like you're underwater in a pool; the chlorine is stinging your eyes, and the water is trapping your ears from hearing the voices of your loved ones.
LAMENTATION brings focus onto the illness an estimated 1.3 million in the UK suffer from, yet few have even heard of."
So, the question you're wondering: where would your funds go?
I'm studying in Manchester, however I will be filming in my home town, Newcastle Upon Tyne. I have chosen Newcastle for the purpose of location - Northumberland and the countryside outside of Newcastle is a beautiful place filled with lush greenery and endless rolling hills and fields. The seashore is a stone's throw away, where segments of my film will take place.
Firstly - your donation will go towards transport. Transport is one of the most important factors - without the budget to transport, there will be few interesting locations, which means lower quality shots, which will ultimately lose the interest of the viewer, making them switch off.
Your donation will also cover props. For my film to be as impactful as I hope, I will need a few interesting props. I would like to use masks to hide and distort the people and supporters surrounding the DPD sufferer. I will also (ideally) buy an older box television to separate the subject from their surroundings.
Picture this: they are in a forest, staring at a beautiful flower. They approach the flower, almost close enough the inhale the aroma of the pollen and petals. As their fingertips grasp out to reach the flower - it cuts, and their fingers hit a television screen, the flower on the screen, instead of being in person. This will highlight the separation between the subject and reality.
Production design is also where your donation will help. Lighting will be so, so important in this film. I plan to play with lighting to help portray the mood of the subject. Reds to emphasise anger, blues to show misery, loneliness. The production design aspect will also cover location decorations - I will require a black space, where a significant portion of my documentary will take place, such as the television sequence mentioned above. Creating this location is of significant importance, and so funds will most definitely go towards this.
Your donation could also go towards the support of the actor and the composer I will be using for the documentary. As they will be working extremely hard, I would like the opportunity to give back how much they will be helping me and making this documentary a reality.
Thank you so, so much for taking the time to read my Crowdfunder. The opportunity to bring forward and shed light on Depersonalisation is something I am incredibly passionate about, and would do my very best in making the best documentary that I am capable of, especially if it means passing the message across to viewers. If you can donate, I am extremely grateful, and if you cannot - a share on social media would be wonderful. Thank you once again.