Please make me normal

Hi. I am an adult survivor of child sexual abuse. My mum died when I was 8 years old and I was left to be cared for by someone who sexually abused me. I have suffered since my childhood with depression and anxiety because of what happened to me. I have had constant counselling to help me overcome this. As a child to help me overcome the trauma I went through which lasted for 4 years I used my body as a vessel to carry the self hatred and guilt I felt because of the abuse. So I carry the hatred of My body to this day. I have lost 6stone in the hope that this would help me overcome the hatred I feel about myself. It hasn't worked as it has left me with baggy saggy skin, which makes me feel a lot worse than ever about my body.  I'm unemployed due to my illness and have no money to pay for the procedure to have all the skin taken away. I have tried through the n h s, but they won't help me. I'm hoping there will be people kind enough out there to help me pay for the procedure I just want to 'be normal'. Thank you so much.