My sons mean the world to me

Hi my name is Kelly, I’m 37yrs old. I have 2 handsome boys. I found out that I had stage 4 cancer in my brain back in 2023 the doctors classed it at stage 4 was in hospital for 7 weeks while they took the first biggest tumor out. Still have 2 left which I am getting treatment for. 6 days after I came home from hospital in April my mum passed away in her sleep her heart failed on her. I blame myself for that as she was really stressed and worried about me. She was happy that I recovered from the brain surgery and then her heart stopped.  I’m asking for help as I want to give my children the best life as they have been through soo much in the past couple of years they are only young eldest in yr7 seniors and youngest in yr4 primary school. In the time I have left we need to make some great memories before I go. My cancer is stage 4 they only gave me 5yrs to live. It’s really sad I feel bad for my children. I sadly know what it feels like to lose a parent.