I grew up abused. I had undiagnosed Autism. I knew it even as a small child but getting the medical diagnosis on the NHS was a living nightmare especially for a female.
I went through life in a tunnel of abuse. I was not spared. Parents, family, work colleagues, people I met.
The effect that the abuse had on me was profound and its only now I can start talking about it. My medical diagnosis was only two years ago and only since then have I been able to start to repair all the years of horrific damage.
People saw how naive I was and took full advantage of me. From family taking money to men abusing me physically, from employers putting me down in jobs, not giving me any promotions or pay increases.
I have never been able to save any money because it was always taken from me. I live in rented house with not very nice landlords.
Since I was a child I dreamed of my own place where no one could touch me, no one could tell me to get out, a place where I would be safe from harm and it was my own.
I dont know what a secure home feels like because I have never had one. My fundraising is to get a deposit for my own house, I'd gladly forgoe any money to be given a house itself. Its not the money I want but my own safe place.
I am not even sure if this crowdfunding will work, I don't talk about my problems to people sp this is a first step. Any amount I am grateful for. If I get my own house it would be a dream and more than that it would heal a deep wound that I have carried since childhood.