Help me become an embalmer!

I’m a 28 year old mum of 3 boys, I work part time in a nursery but my real aspirations are to become an embalmer. I have tried to get into the funeral home industry so that I can train through them, but have had no luck at all. I have been looking online at training courses and unfortunately the only course near me has a £4500 start up fee for module 1. After module 1 there are 4 more modules which are £1250 each time, and this is without the fees towards the British institution of embalmers (£250) and without the examination fees (£550). Unfortunately I do not have the money to pay for this, I have tried my absolute best to save, but unfortunately I am nowhere near target. I have asked family for loans, unfortunately nobody has this kind of money to lend me. And I have tried to get a loan through the bank which again I’m unable to get. My savings aren’t even touching the sides with the fees, and I don’t want to give up on my dreams.
please If there is anybody that can help me, please do. Thank you so much in advance.