Give my kids a stable home

Had to flee home with 5 kids , have left everything we have basics struggle everyday means need white goods washer cooker fridge freezer carpets wardrobes also Xmas is a struggle struggling with presents also have 3bdays my kids don’t deserve to go without I’m trying so hard for them to give them normality and a stable home . My partners left me for my best friend and iv just lost my 12 year old niece  suddenly my life’s overwhelming to say the least my 18 year old has attempted suicide and self harming I just want a normal life