Sri Lanka, Sen Wellness where the Kundalini journey all began. (I AM second to the right)
"If you have the courage to begin then you have the courage to suceed"
I would love to become a good human being again, leave my addictive past behind me and help other people from darkness to light by becoming a Kundalini Yoga Guru and setting up a business based on my experiences in sobriety called Abso Poso Fab, a magical opportunity of possibilities for anyone with pain or not reaching their full potential.
~ Gu is darkness and Ru is light thus Guru is a spiritual teacher supporting students to move from darkness to light ~
Why am I crowdfunding:
I am crowdfunding for the money to pay for my Kundalini teacher training course. Instead of waiting years to save up the money to do this I felt empowered through my Kundalini awakening to 'just ask for help'. I need you to be my water. I am a seed in need of water to grow into a flower. I will then produce more seeds, nurture them and let them grow into flowers in their own way.
~ By sponsoring me you are guiding a recovered soul towards his calling, his destiny. This is a huge gift I don't intend on looking back and waisting ~
You've got guts reading on and for that you have my upmost respect and LOVE
* Lets start with a game: See how truthful you can be: Which number is your life most like? *
1. Aggressive, cowardly, cruel, dishonest, greedy, impatient, inconsiderate, irresponsible, jealous, envious, lazy, moody, obsessive, over-emotional, resentful, selfish, weak-willed, vengeful, vulgar and sarcastic, stealing, lying, cheating and abusive.
2. Homeless, shelters, strip clubs, brothels, prison, orgies, phone sex, paid sex, cocaine, crack, weed, ecstasy, wine and whiskey, porn, sex addict, abducted and beaten, loss of friends, loss of love, bad acid trips, sting operations against cartels, living in slums, car crashes and psoriasis.
3. Adventurous, affectionate, strength, courageous, calm, creative, energetic, enthusiastic, fearless, funny, generous, friendly, intuitive, positive, polite, trusting, honest, romantic, self-disciplined, sensitive, warmhearted, willing and commitment, motivation, loving kindness, patience and love.
Answer: You probably had some from each, hopefully more towards No 3. Well number 1 & 2 were ALL that existed and happened to me in my addictive life, very little of 3 appeared; until now!
"I don’t want to use my addiction as an excuse anymore, I don’t want to be a recovering addict, I want a spiritual life and to be part of a positive happy society and I want to teach the things I love in order to inspire people to do the things they love".
2013 Negative Addict vs 2017 Positive zen happiness
A cocaine, alcohol and sex addict
Prison in South Africa & UK, sexually abused, was raped, attacked many times, stole, robbed, burgled and pillaged, homeless, paid sex, phone sex and sex addictions, alcoholic, suicide, coma, loss of love, loss of friends and loss of belongings, to name a few
18th February 2016:
19th February 2016:
Guardian angel brought me back to life. Day of sobriety
20th February 2016:
Went into induced coma for six days
19th April 2016:
Entered into Quantum Sobriety rehab in Suffolk. Had Spiritual awakening, quit drugs, alcohol, smoking and went abstinent. Introduced to mediation, yoga and clean eating
19th March 2016:
Booked onto to The Freedom Trail World War 2 trek for the Royal British Legion charity
March - September 2016
Mediation, yoga, training, fundraising, diet, counselling, NA/AA meetings and worked at my rehab center
19th September 2016:
Started (completed) the Freedom Trail that changed my life
January - May 2017:
Mediation and yoga practice daily
Working on sobriety and ME
Relapsed in May due to dishonesty with myself. I'm privileged to have experienced and felt that pain
Was suppose to be on a charity yoga trek in the Himalayas but cancelled due to relapse
19th May 2017:
Awakening after relapse
May - November 2017:
Planning, organizing and training for a spiritual adventure to deepen my levels and understanding of mediation, yoga and my heart to Sri Lanka
December - January 2017/18
Kundalini awakening in Sri Lanka.
4 lessons discovered:
- Metta. The practice of loving kindness to yourself and all beings
- Silence. You can change the world in silence
- Mindfulness. Now is all that matters
- Kundalini yoga
Sobriety with all substances
Motivation towards my dream. (Crowdfunding, teacher course and setting up business while working for a charity)
Loving and self-care to me
Course finishes in May and I will become a kundalini teacher and start Abso Poso Fab while celebrating the number 19: NEW BEGINNINGS!
(I've been blessed with three awakenings all on the 19th. The 19th is the number of new beginnings, surrender, and my guardian angels birthday and is now tattooed on me)
What is Kundalini Yoga?:
"to cultivate the creative spiritual potential of a human to uphold values, speak truth, and focus on the compassion and consciousness needed to serve and heal others."
"I often say to students that you cannot stay the same when you practice Kundalini Yoga. The very nature of what we do is to awaken the energy of consciousness, to practice in a way that sheds light on our self-imposed limitations, and invites us to think out of the box and develop our intuitive mind. Being able to live from our intuitive mind is one of the main goals of a Kundalini practitioner. Kundalini Yoga is not to be taken lightly. It is like an express train that shakes and wakes you up. I sincerely encourage you to have an experience of Kundalini Yoga for yourself. It will add depth to your existing practice and to your life". Kia Miller
How will the money be spent?:
The teacher training is in Hoath House, Kent Uk from the school Ik Saran Dhian for three one week sessions and is residential. Starting in October 2018, then February 2019 and ending in May 2019. The School is based on the pillars of Humility, Courage and Truth.
A non refundable deposit of £300.00 is required to secure your place. Tuition (after payment of deposit) £900
The training can be paid for in monthly instalments paid by direct debit. Payments must begin at least three months before the start of the training. When the tuition fee is paid in full before 13 September 2018 there is a discount of £50.
£1200 covers Food and Accommodation for the whole training, the Manual, Certification, Administration, 1 years free membership of KYTA (Kundalini Yoga Teachers Association)
Total Costs £2400
If I'm blessed and make the target I will simply pay the total cost in one go!!!
The future is now:
My business Abso Poso Fab - a magical opportunity of possibilities is the way I see life now.
Absolutely positively fabulous.
This moment now is all that matters but I have a dream and calling in life so I must balance 'now' with a plan. Over the next 6 months I will build a business plan on love, organically and naturally from my heart. There's no need to build on stress, over indulging, over consuming, hectic workloads and driven by what the western world society forces upon us to create fear and emergency I.e news, advertisements and social media. None of these help us be who we really are.
I want to give my all to each student and each heart, so Abso Poso Fab will be carefully created to keep me happy and centred while at the same time keep my students positive and growing with depth.
There must be forms of communication but life is for living not just occupation. When we no longer have an occupation who are we? I'm not waiting to retire to find this out.
It's all about 'balance'.
My business will evolve around 5 teachings and 5 truths that are the core in helping me over come my experiences. If I am true to my heart and honest with these then I believe I can do my part in serving the world and helping others.
Silence Loving Kindness
Kundalini Meditation Motivation
Quantum Sobriety Commitment
My plan will be to have a community nurturing business that can move to anywhere in the world and plant seeds. It will involve exciting innovative ways to bring people out of their troubled minds and reach their full potential, a programme based on "If I can do it, any one can do it", a bridge between rehabilitation and happy life, helping other charities along the way, passion projects through out the world and discovering the ultimate question, "Who am I"?
I plan to bring a lot more colour, laughter, passion, peace and love in to this world.
LOVE EVERYONE and YOU WILL BUILD UP AN AURA OF LIGHT AND LOVE
I want you to know how grateful I am.
"A grateful heart is a magnet for miracles"