I'm having trouble with my oxygen mask and I'm afraid I won't be able to stay around for my family. Don't get me wrong I've tried, but I'm tired and I'm running out of energy. I did everything I was suppose to, I went to school, uni, I got the job, bought the house, had the family. I may not have had a fully fitted mask but I'd taped that thing on and swam. Nightmares child abuse, trauma and monsters at every turn and I swam. When my body and mind gave out I took the meds, applied more tape and kept going. When we had to move house because my husband was diagnosed with a degenerative disease I swam harder but the water started to get thicker and I felt like I was swimming in slime. Debt, bills, emails, phone calls, hurting myself made me feel better even though you have teenagers now and know it's wrong, so you take the meds, apply more tape and ask for help only to be told your to far gone, too stressed to get help... take the meds until you feel better. But nothing gets better. The pain increases, the bills get higher and your oxygen supply is running out along with your tape. My husband suffers from chronic pain, my daughter is autistic, my son panic attacks. My family is dropping out of the sky and nothing helps. I'm the one wearing the mask but it's no longer working. I'm scared, I don't want to go on but there's no choices, no way out, I need to start swimming again. I'm not a run down business or building in need or repairs, I'm not a young woman needing to buy a new medical adaptation, I'm a grown woman, the head of a house hold, with mental health conditions and a family who rely on me. I'm falling out of the sky and I think I want to hit the floor. It seems every decision I ever made was wrong but I need to keep swimming, I need air. I'm sorry that I need to ask, I'm ashamed that I need to ask but I'm a short overweight middle aged woman with ugly feet, my options are very limited 😕