I've known, for as long as i've known anything
that i didn't fit in the boxes society prescribed.
when i was 11 i refused to take part in a biology practical because i was convinced my chromosomes were messed up - what else could account for how out of place i felt?
I came out as enby at least four times, but i was always put back in the box
because i was "too young"
because i was "a woman really"
because "you're my wife"
because "you're allowed to be a woman however you want to be a woman"
and I really *really* tried.
But i'm not a woman, not a wife, not a daughter
Refusing to go back in the box cost me my marriage.
I am strong, I am brave, I am trying to win this fight that begs me to mutilate myself so i can be free of my chest. It is too hot, too feminine, too big, too much.
Therefore I am asking for your help.
I am going to do a 24h twitch stream on the 27th July, you will be able to ask any questions, I will answer as honestly as I can while playing silly little videogames for your entertainment.
https://www.twitch.tv/idriselansaal
Please show up, please donate.