Hello! My name is Joshua. Last year in 2018 I achieved my dream by becoming a Butlins Redcoat entertainer. It was a very proud moment for me to deliver to hardworking families the memorable times I had on holiday with my family growing up, In July 2018, I went off work sick because of anxiety and depression.
Despite me loving my job at times I just wanted to feel love, I felt lonely and felt i was forever pleasing others. I was talking to a lad called Jack at the time with a potential relationship on the horizon. Jack was previously in a abusive relationship and shared his experiences with me. After Jack talking about his horror I realized i went through the same trauma.
It was a shock to the system! I became very sleepy, anxious, lost self-worth and was unmotivated. I did not know where my life was heading. I was in a very dark place with thoughts of suicide and self-harm. Despite attempts to settle into a relationship with Jack, things were not working for us both and I walked away. I had Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and counselling over the phone and face to face and I then met my partner Brandon. My life started to pick up and I never went back to work for Butlins as I was off sick and my contract ended in November.
In March a started my life again working on the phones at the AA. To start off with it was all new and I was enjoying the shift pattern and work/life balance. I started to become increasingly anxious and suicidal again. I tried to improve my health and worked with my manager to try to make things better but despite all efforts my mental health did not improve. I parted with the company.
Since then things have been on the up. I have a passion for mental health awareness and have been working on a business plan, doing market research in the form of online and pop up cafe's . I looking for create a place for people suffering with anxiety and depression or people which want to escape the busyness of everyday life in order to cleanse the mind. I am looking to bring elements from the outdoors such as plants and water into my cafe and to offer a peaceful place for people to open up to each other, read a book or to take part in a social event such as arts and crafts .
Money Raised will go towards what I need to gather the information and to pay for services from Social Enterprise Start up companies and make my pop-up cafe's better by securing bigger venues.
My idea has had such a positive impact on people's lives already. I am very confident my project will even save lives . The response to my idea has been overwhelming from the local community. I feel there is a need for my idea and so many others do too.