So, to explain the background, 18 months ago I was in my lowest place.
I had moved back from Australia severely underweight and was officially diagnosed with Anorexia in April 2018. I began therapy through my local NHS Community service and slowly began to regain weight and return to the old Katie.
I was lucky, albeit in a horribly twisted way. My weight had dropped low enough that I received the support I needed immediately and was never admitted to hospital, but those first few months were especially tough. I was embarrassed. My family would ask my mum how I was doing and I'd get upset about her saying anything because I didn't want people to know. It felt like this was self-inflicted and really I just felt so ashamed.
Fast forward to December 2018. I'd gained a few kilos (still had a long way to go!) and everyone was talking about New Year's resolutions. This year I'm going to get fit, Veganuary, stop eating X, Y and Z so I can get my dream body.... To be honest it was horribly triggering and making the thought of gaining more weight even harder.
So I made two resolutions which were definitely not weight/health/fitness/looks based.
1) Learn German
2) Raise £300 for charity
So I downloaded Duolingo and then ignored my resolutions until approx three days ago.
As I'm writing this, I've just spent an hour on the basics of German. "Brot und wasser", "ich bin eine Frau". I mean it's a start, certainly useful if I find myself auditioning for Oliver Twist in Berlin........
Now for part 2.
An eating disorder (ED) isn’t something to be ashamed of, it’s an illness that has a huge impact on both the sufferer and their friends and family. Eating disorders have the highest mortality rates among psychiatric disorders, both due to the physical impact on the body but also because of how depressed starvation makes you feel mentally.
I remember how low I felt when I started recovery and I want to do something to help people who are now feeling that awful. The aim was £300 but really I want to do something more personal as I KNOW what sufferers are going through.
I want to make some care packages for eating disorder sufferers who are currently at that lowest point, struggling to take those first few steps towards regaining their lives and really just need something from someone who understands what they are going through. When you're suffering from an ED the advice is to do something to help distract you from the wave of sheer guilt you experience for eating, like do a puzzle, listen to music etc. Basically something that will distract your brain so the anxiety can start to subside, without turning to disordered behaviours.
So yeah, this page is aiming to help me raise some money so I can give back now I'm starting to come out the other side of this rather tough journey to recovery.
If you can donate, that will go towards postage or purchasing the physical items to go in the box.
If you know someone who runs a business who would be willing to donate gifts for the boxes, that'd be awesome.
If someone you love is suffering and you want to nominate them to receive a package, I would love to hear from you.
Please, spread the word.
Lots of Love,