I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in 2011, up until July 2018 I was coping fine and dealing with what life had to offer. In July of last year, my partner of 10 years walked out on me for another man. I was left with picking up the pieces on my own and tried to cope but I didn't.
For the last 3 years I was working for a very large UK based car retailer, my bosses were terrible and I was bullied everyday whilst I was there, HR were as useless and on numerous occasions never found anyone responsible for their actions. Why did I stay you ask, well it kept me going and least I had an income but in July of this year I was bullied in to resigning. The pressure became unbearable and it either resign or do something stupid. Hence my appeal today.
My mental illness has affected me to such an extent that I have become homebound and on the brink of suicide. I cannot use public transport due to panic attacks and anxiety which in turn makes my depression worse. I need to raise money so I can pay my rent and and out food on my table. I have kept up with my payments but this month I am unable to pay and my landlord has threatened to throw me out.
I have never done anything like this before and it's probably my last resort, I have tried welfare in Scotland and universal credit but they only give me £331 per month. I have spent days without food and no electricity and gas because I am unable to top it up. I may have a roof over my head but I have nothing else. Medical support is a waiting list of 6 months for a psychologist, so I am waiting for that, please if you read this, help me, I have nobody that I can turn too and maybe there is someone that could help another living although damaged soul.
I was hoping to pay my rent and maybe buy a cheap car so I could get out of my prison and maybe enjoy life a bit more, sometimes just getting out and going to the beach or drive can make things better.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and if you do help me, I would like to say thank you, you have made a difference.