Our Mummy was a wonderful woman who was tormented her entire life by mental health issues.
Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD and Anxiety to name a few. She fought so hard every day with her own mind and yet managed to always make sure everyone else was ok. She had her children very young starting at 16 giving up her own childhood to raise us. Later in life, one of her greatest accomplishments that she was so proud of was when she retrained as a mature student and became a qualified nurse with the NHS. She was at her happiest when she was helping others or with her family.
After a dark year our mummy had started to get her life back together and was reapplying to be a nurse again, then suddenly on Friday 13th October she was found by police at her home after concerns over her had been raised by family members.
Our Mummy had killed herself. I don't like to say committed suicide, because its not a crime that she couldn't cope anymore, a lethal dose of Co-Codamol, Nytol and other medication. She wanted the pain to go.
We hope it has for her in rest.
Mummy was a beautiful woman, the biggest brown eyes, always smelt amazing, always wore way to many bangles and jingled when ever she moved. She loved ABBA and loved reading us all Winnie the Pooh poems, She would always be there for anyone at the drop of a hat.
But the demons got the better of her. She leaves behind 4 children (pictured), Pixie 31, Chris 29, Melanie 24, Lydia 23 and 3 grandchildren, Lily 7, Eva-Mae 6, and Elliot 5 weeks old.
She left only us behind.
We were unable to show her the amount of love that she truly deserved in her life. We let her down.
We want to make amends and be able to give her the send of she is entitled to and hope that she can see how many people loved her.
We would love to be able to pay for her funeral ourselves but the reality is, we cant. So we are asking, if you would be willing to make a donation however small, so we can send this beautiful lady to the stars in a way she would never believe possible.
Any money raised that is not used directly for the funeral will be donated to the Samaritans, who we have discovered our mum reached out to on many occasions over the years for support when she was left with no one else to turn to.