I realise to many people its not an important but when my husband died I had to keep it together for the children. I was pregnant at the time and over ate for comfort. The pregnancy was tricky so I had a C section. The thing is now as time goes I am proud how well my children are doing and I am dedicated to them. It’s just I feel ashamed of my huge belly. I still look pregnant. It’s difficult to exercise because it over hangs and flaps about. I know I could never find a new love because of it. I want to feel strong again and confident. I don’t want my children to feel ashamed of me. It impacts my life. I walk with my head down, I don’t mix with people. I can’t take the children swimming. I can’t wear none electric waists and I wear huge pants. In the warm weather I get terrible infections under the over hanging skin. You get the picture. I have never asked for anything in my life. But I know I cannot get a loan and I know I have to do something. I am proud of the home we have, modest, clean and loving. What little we have is ours. But sadly like most I have little to no money left over each month. But thankfully bills paid. I hope you have enough information to understand a little of my situation. Many thanks for your time in reading this.